A brand new year equals to a brand new start of my phase of life. Year 2004 has been a fruitful year for me. Full of life journeys, miracles, sweat from hard work, and the fruits of labour.

Firstly, who could have imagined that we (Cheah Liang and me) would have ended up together as a couple? Certainly not us! May 30th 2004 was the start of the journey of our lives, intertwined.

Secondly, my application to Nanyang Technological University has been accepted. Wasn't an easy route for me to enter into the tertiary education. Getting a place in the university was just a stepping stone. Next, I'd to face the challenges: adapting to the lifestyle in there, getting the grades, making new friends, etc. The first two months were difficult. I wasn't familiarized with the environment, physically. I felt lost, stranded. To make things worse, Dear was already enlisted in the army. But that didn't deterred us. Distance didn't tear us apart. But tied us tighter than before. Dear did a lot for me. He taught me how to get use to university lifestyle, strategies to study effectively, and most importantly, he helped me to de-stress myself, and not to pressure myself too much.

I'm looking forward to the brand new year 2005! Wanna start a new phase of life with DEAR! =)

Dear's booking out today!! =)
His first bookout from Sispec. I was supposed to go to his house and wait for him to arrive home. But I was too caught up with the spring cleaning of my room, my house. Coz the painters are coming tomorrow to give the house a brand new slosh of paint. Met up with Dear at Outram's East West line station. Went to walk around in Citylink, Suntec City. After that we went to catch a horror film, Shutter, at Marina Square.

I never like horror films, romance shows. I prefer war, action-packed, comedies. Firstly, I don't see the logic in paying $8.50 per ticket to scare my guts out. Secondly, I'm not gonna pay $8.50 to watch the film in between my fingers. Thirdly, I'm not gonna pay $8.50 to have a nightmare. Therefore, it's really a rare occasion that I'm willing to watch a horror film.

There are conditions to watch horror films though. Firstly, my boyfriend has to be with me. I DON'T WATCH HORROR FILMS WITH FRIENDS ALONE. Well, except for girlfriends though. hahahahaha... Coz I'll freak myself out and grab anyone next to me. So my boyfriend must accompany me, if not I won't watch it. Secondly, I don't watch horror film later than 10pm. hahahahaha... Coz it's CLOSE TO MIDNIGHT!! I'm a pathetic freak in horror films. But you'll see a different me when I watch war movies. I'll be going, 'Why don't they blow him up in pieces?' stuff like that.

Well, back to the movie, Shutter. I decide to catch the movie after Ling, Huiyi and other peeps keep talking about it and recommend me to watch it. Well, since Dear and I have yet to catch a movie together since God knows when, why not? But I was half-hearted. Both of us wanted to watch Ocean's Twelve initially. But the screening time was late, so we have to settle for Shutter.

In less than 15 mins when the movie started, I was already whispering to Dear, 'Can we leave now?' hahahahahaha... =.='''
Throughout the movie, I think I was the only frequent one screaming and covering my eyes and ears. hahahahahaha... very dramatic.
I remember there was one scene, where the director purposely hiked up the atmosphere. Then when the climax came, I screamed like nobody's business. And DEAR SCREAMED ALSO! hahahahahahaha!!!! that Big Fat Pig also know how it feels to be scared! hahahahhaha....

After the movie, we headed back to my house. Then he tucked me in bed. Coz he knows I don't dare to sleep until I feel it's safe. When will I watch the next horror film? Probably at least for the next 6 months, I will not challenge myself to a horror film. I shall stick to my preferred genre of movies... hahahahaha... Dear also SCREAMED LIKE A SQUEALING PIG! SNORT! SNORT!

Alrighty! The exam results are out! 4Bs, 1C, 1D. Maths, Physics, Lab, Life Science are all grades B. Religion and Social Life graded C, and lastly, Material Science graded D. Though Dear said I've done well, I'm a bit disappointed that I didn't get A for Maths... Never mind. No use crying over split milk. I'll aim for A next semester. Not just for Maths only. But for Physics! Coz next semester, I'll be studying Electricity, Magnetism, Waves, Superposition! hahahahaha... My favourites! Ya ya... NERD! WHAT TO DO RIGHT?!?!?!?

I'm so shagged. Came back from chalet today. Quite fun. 1st time staying overnight. Well, not exactly 1st time. Stayed overnight when I was still attending the provisional JC period, but at that time, there's a teacher, only to backed out at the last minute. Didn't sleep much. I think less than an hour. COZ DEAR'S SNORES ARE THUNDEROUS! hahahaha... not that I blame him. He's got a cold. I just hoped that his snores didn't disturb his friends. Didn't sleep at all when he's awake. Afraid that his temperature will rise, afraid that he'll be cold, afraid that he'll kick the blanker while sleeping. But overall, it's a memorable day worth keeping in memory. I get to stay overnight with DEAR! =)

It's over. Everything's over. I give up. I don't want anyone, anything else.

Pissed off now. So god-damn angry now. Why can't she listen to me? WHY? WHY? WHY? What difference does it make by staying overnight just 1 more day? I can't tolerate my mom anymore. I've given her enough respect by not walking out of the house and go ahead with my plans. I've informed her about the chalet, ASKED her PERMISSION! HELLO!!! She should be glad that her daughter is tolerating her screamings, naggings, and biasness against me. I've not taken drugs, not gotten into any crimes or whatsoever. Why doesn't she trust me at all!? Haven't I showned her I'm quite a responsible girl? I give her a call when I'm home late, ask her permission for outings *how many daughters at my age still does that?*

I'm cracking... at the verge of cracking. Never seen a university student asking her mom for permission for outing? Permission on starting a relationship? Permission for almost everything? MEET ME! I'M PROUD TO BE ONE. I've already know how's my future like. Even though I'm 30 years old, I'll still be asking my aged mom for permission for everything, and maybe I'll still be single, a spinster. Ling! You've got company for spinsterhood.

Damn it! I hate my life! She doesn't even treat me like an adult! The apple of her eye will always be my brother. GIMME A BREAK! GIMME MY LIFE! If you gave birth to me just because you wish to control my life, my everything, I rather not live. Thank you very much for EVERYTHING!

05 December 2004, 1909 hours

JOHOR BAHARU, Malaysia : A Singaporean woman died after she lost control of her high-powered motorcycle and crashed into the metal divider at KM23.1 of the Second Link on Saturday night.

Johor Baharu (North) Traffic Police head Chief Inspector Bakri Zainal Abidin said Linda Wee, in her 20s, who worked at a factory in the republic, died on the way to the Kulai Hospital, Bernama news agency reported.

Wee, from Bukit Merah in Singapore, was riding her motorcycle towards Kulai to meet her boyfriend when the accident occurred.

She fell after hitting the divider and was dragged about 200m by the motorcycle, he told Bernama. She sustained serious body injuries and broke her right arm in the 11.30pm accident.

Chief Inspector Bakri said the victim's family had claimed her body. - CNA

If the person wasn't Linda, wasn't my friend, I would have just flipped the news as it didn't strike me at all. Such a short report, yet evoking so much of emotions. To the editor, it seems just ordinary road accident. To ordinary readers, seems just another news. But to family, relatives and friends of Linda, it's heart-wrecking news, with emotions running high...

Went to Linda's wake last night. Many people turned up. Jevon, Clarissa, Ling, Liting, Liya, Stella, Chee Sing, Meilian, Ernest, and much more. Even our teachers, Justin Tay and Grace Tan turned up. Jeffrey Tan didn't, coz he's too shocked and doesn't want to attend. So did Huijing. I understand. Coz I didn't feel like attending in the first place. But I refused to believe Linda's gone until I see her body. Call me stubborn whatever. Grace was crying when she arrived at the wake. Everyone was at the verge of crying. But Linda's a strong girl. She'll never allow us to cry for her. Ling said that at least she went away with her bike at her side. I agree. The bike's her baby. She loved her bike very much. If she's given a second chance, no doubt she'll choose this path again.

Couldn't sleep well last night. Woke up twice in the night, suddenly thought of her. Cried for my lost friend. Didn't expect to catch up with the rest at her wake. I miss her...

What is the world becoming to? I'm already in a lousy mood. I still can't believe Linda's gone. I'm trying hard to hold back the tears. And here's my mom, screaming at me. I mean literally screaming. Gimme a break. I'm mourning for my dear lost friend in my heart. Quit hitting hard at me! The same stuff, that I never do any housework, just sit around at home, not finding a job during the holidays, only know how to enjoy life and stretch out my hands to ask money from them. I'm sick of my life. Nothing I do seems to satisfy my mom. NOTHING! I dunno what to do anymore. Just finished packing some stuff of secondary school. Mom was practically screaming her head off me. I really feel like slapping her shitless. I know that's wrong. That's why I held back my temper, held back my tongue. I just wish I can move out, live my own life. I'm wondering, if I ever become a parent myself, I'll never put my child down. I'll never imply meanings that he's worthless, nor he's incapable, nor will I comment that he's not smart nor intelligent like what I'm subjected to by my mom. I remember when I finished my A-levels, awaiting for my results, one can always hear her rentless comments about me not being able to make it to the university. To her, my elder brother is the apple of her eye. The desktop was paid by my dad. While I'd to slog my F***king ass out to buy myself a celviano. Not only was money the factor, I'd to persuade them to allow me to buy the piano! Freedom? Sorry. I've no idea what's that.

Gracie commented that she's suprised that I've not rebelled. How can I? I don't see the use of rebellion. For once, I've no idea how to express my frustrations. I dun wish for tomorrow to arrive. If tomorrow arrives, means I'll be attending Linda's wake, which in turn means that I'm forced to believe that she's gone. Life's unfair! Linda shouldn't be lying in the coffin now. She should be out there enjoying her weekend, should be out there enjoying her youth. WHY!? SOMEONE TELL ME WHY!? WHY MY FRIEND? WHY ME?! FUCK! TELL ME!

I was wrong about today. I counted my chicks too early. Received a call from Ling immediately after submitted the earlier entry. Shocking news awaits me. Linda passed away in a bike accident last night. I didn't know how to react to the news. Blank was the word my mind registered the moment Ling announced the news to me. I can't believed my friend, my classmate for 2 years, passed away. She's only 20! The last time I saw her was in Millenium Walk. She was waiting for her friend. We chatted awhile, exchanged promises to keep in contact, with that, I cautioned her to be careful when riding her baby, aka her bike. Now, about an hour after I woke up, Ling called me to inform me about the passing of Linda.

Dear Linda,

You're a great girl to begin with, an astounding woman in the near future. We were schoolmates in secondary school. You were in the class next to mine, and in the next two preceeding years, we're in the same class. We joined the same curriculum, badminton and quitted at the same time. That was in the lower secondary. Though we're not very close. But we've our special moments together too. Secrets were shared, gossips were exchanged. During that two years, Linda was an excellent friend. Helping, reaching out to everyone who has problems. You sat next to Ling during our graduating year, 4/6. Both you and Ling were sitted in the 3rd row, 2nd row from the entrance. Joan and I were sitted in front of both of you. The four of us have so much to talk about. I remember you always fall asleep during Chinese class, same time with me. And our Chinese teacher, Mr Chen Tat Kwang, will always hook his eyes on us, to catch us sleeping, until he gave up hope nabbing us.

We bumped into each other in Millenium Walk 7-8 months ago. You were waiting for your friend. We chatted for awhile, after that, exchanged promises to keep in contact. But alas! I forgot to ask for your mobile. However, I was not to be disappointed. I searched for you in friendster. I wanted to add you, but I couldn't do so for I'd too many pending friend invites. Now I regret thoroughly for not adding you. You've changed so much my dear friend. A budding girl, with exceptional potential to excel in every walk of life. Strong will be the best adjective to describe you. You're a strong, independent girl, never backing down to life's obstacles. To that, and our 8 years of friendship, I admire you deeply. I know you've difficulties but you never ask for help, nor allow them to drag beaming face into a frown. Dear friend, I hope you'll find happiness now, for life was hard on your previous life.

Yours truly and forever,
Sandra

Well, let's see, I'm still groggy from sleep. Slept late last night, this morning again. About 2am. woke up at 11am. thanks a million to daddy who is so persistent in waking people up, especially me. -____- Guess there's nothing much to update about today, since I'm not going anywhere. Probably will drag Mr Ho Cheah Liang for a swim with me. haha! A PIG THAT CAN SWIM PRETTY WELL! Have you guys seen anything as miraculous as that! WOW! *applause*

To be continued...

Dear's gonna be passing out today! FINALLY! The HOLY DAY! hahahahaha... Coz after today, he'll be having a week of block leave. then he can accompany me to go swimming, go Pulau Ubin et cetra. =)

Gonna meet Dear's mom at Pasir Ris mrt control station at 1.30pm. Then we'll take the chartered bus to the ferry station, and will board the ferry and head for tekong. Feeling sleepy now. Slept late last night. Er, actually is this morning at 2am. heez.. Was busy doing the cross-stitch thingy. Hope to finish it asap.

But as I'm updating the blog now, my mood is spoilt by my very 'GOOD' brother of mine, who has often thrashed vulgurities on me. He's crazy man. I just told him on msn when I saw him online, that he didn't close the contact lens solution cap properly. And you know what was his reply? 'Fuck off lar!' This type of brother also have. So much of his 'I love my family' statement. All crap.

*groan* I'm fighting a losing battle against the flu bug. damn it. Now that 3rd Dec is just 2 days away, I can't afford to fall ill! I've to attend Dear's passing out parade! I've so much things to do when Dear finishes his bmt. Still have to attend chalet, class bbq, go Pulau Ubin, et cetra. Going to meet Gracie later, 1pm at PS. Dunno can make it anot. I'll try though. Going to take a rest 1st.

Woke up at 5.15am this morning to wait for Dear's call. Today's our 6th month anniversary. But I woke up an hour early. Didn't want to miss the call. Though only chatted with him for 1 min, it was more than enough for me. Dear's gonna have a rough day ahead of him. SOC, marching. Yucks. Don't even wanna hear about it. Hope the call made a boost to his tough day ahead. Was supposed to meet Gracie, Liying and Andrea. But sadly, the outing was cancelled. Liying and Andrea couldn't make it. Gracie's sick. Didn't want her to come out, and pass me the virus. *hiak hiak hiak*

Woke up at 10am, when I've a dental appointment at that time! It's all the clock's fault! It's slowed by an hour! Only when I called my sister, Ling, did I saw the time on the caller ID. YIKES! Brush my teeth quickly and had a changed of clothes before rushing out of the house. Within half an hour from 10.30am, my pearly whites are back! *^^*v

Bought a double fillet burger from Macs, though I'm not a fan of Macs. I practically hate Macs. Only eat it when I don't have a choice. Bought some food from pasar malam held around the bus-stop, and then headed for home. After brunch,*lolz*, the food works wonders. Time for hibernation!

Tomorrow I'll be meeting Gracie. =)
Gonna shop around for Dear's present. Hope to find something for him. My 6th month anniversary present for him, also a passing out parade present for him. hahahahaha... cheapo? SO?!?!?! BLEAH!! =P

Damn it! Why does mom always find fault in me? I help her to wash the dishes, keep the clothes, fold the clothes, iron my own clothes, and she still ain't bloody satisfied! What does she want from me! Just had an argument with her. All because of my bursary $300! She's always arguing with me, either with the topic of me not helping out in household chores, or financial matters. It's only $300! How much you want? My monthly school fee which loaned from NTU of $270 per month has been reduced to $170 per month because of the stupid laptop which I've not been using much at all! Now I've received $300 bursary, she's into it again! When I started temporary jobs, working overtime non-stop, working my ass off, I gave her allowance despite my miserable pay! Not that she's not working or wat! I'M JUST WORKING AS A TEMP! And did that filial brother of mine gave her any money when he started working? NO! EVERYTHING IS ME! ME! ME! And now she's being sarcastic, about not giving treat about my bursary. HEY! FOR GOODNESS SAKE! That $300 is to last me throughout this whole 2 months of holiday! I don't even get allowance from NTU during hols! I've to dig into my savings for my travelling expenses, my textbooks (which she so honourably backed down her promise to pay me back for the books), my meals, the laptop (which I paid and I don't get to use much!) Damn it. What did I do to deserve this?

And now she's nagging me to get a job. Not that I didn't! I did go to job agencies. But there's not much job offers! What does she expect! Not only that, she's also nagging me to give tuition! Why doesn't she think before she talk? Who wants tuition during holidays? And who wants a tutor to give tuition for 1 month? And she retorts that I can continue my tuition throughout my university days. She thinks it's so easy to give tuition?! I've a reason to delay my tuition plan! Because I want to be able to get into my desired faculty! I want to study Bioengineering! If not Electrical and Electronic Engineering! I don't wanna be distracted! Does she understand anot?! I told her so many times! BUT SHE'S STILL DON'T GET IT! This coming next semester is gonna be busy like hell! And Year 1 is crucial! Coz I'll be streamed. I dun wanna end up in a faculty I hate and spend my next 3 years studying for the sake of studying. GET IT MOTHER!

I don't see a need to give tuition yet! I don't have much money! $3000 in my bank is all I have! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! MOTHER!

I'm in Dear's house now. He's booking in soon. Gonna leave with him, to meet his army friends. But I'll leave in the earlier train. Dear don't like me to see him off especially when he's booking in, coz he can't hug me, can't kiss me. Well, looking at the bright side, he's gonna pass out this coming friday 03 Dec 2005! YEAH!! then he'll have 1 week of break. Can't wait to spend time with him! =)
Today Dear accompanied me to the temple where Grandpa's and Grandma's ashes are kept. Went to collect my bursary from the temple. It's my A's results. Papa went to applied for it. Met some of my friends. My JJC 1st 3 months friend, Bangzhi, my SRJC friend, Huihui. Well, the bursary's $300. Although little, better than none right? Thes $300 will have to last me through the Dec holidays. *Groan* Gonna be broke soon...

Last season, we talked about how the return of the ex affected and changed our lead actress, Sandra, on her day out with her boyfriend, Cheah Liang and his group of friends. This season, we'll continue to bring you the updated news, juciest gossips about her...

After Norman's intervention during my Coffee Club meeting with Dear and his group of friends, I thought that's the worst thing can happen for the day. Wrong. I counted my eggs too early. During the night, while we're having dinner near Maxwell, my mobile rang. Guess what? My JC friend, Jerry, the guy whom I admire so much for his piano skills, called me. It was such a suprise to me! A friend whom I've lost contact for 2 years, called me! But the eerie feeling crept up on me again... He asked me how have I been, whether have I changed much, stuff like that. He even said, must ask me out to see how much I've changed. Talked to him for awhile, about 10-15 mins, I guessed. While I was talking to Jerry, my hands went to Dear's hands. But he shrugged it off. That action cut my heart like a knife. Never have I experienced such pain. When we reached home, Dear was in my room, telling me his problems. At that RIGHT MOMENT, a message from Paul, via sms, asking me out for a movie the next day. Darn! I feel like I'm in some movie plot. I never ask for attention from other guys, and I don't enjoy it either...

Dear booked out last night around 9 plus. We're supposed to go for dinner together, but had to cancel it due to his late return to mainland. *sigh*

Met with with Dear this afternoon around 2pm, since he went for a few basketball games with his army mates. Well, at least I did something useful during that morning. Spent time with my close sister since secondary 1. Chatted with her online, since she's alone and bored in the office. As what everyone predicted, she didn't do her job, but spent her time chatting with me. hahaha..
Dear and I went to Breeks, Orchard branch, for lunch. YUCKS! The food there isn't for human consumption! BLEAH!!! Even the ice-cream was pathetic! I'm not going to dine at Breeks anymore! We proceeded to meet Jasmine, Yiqin and company (Dear's friends). When everyone's has taken attendance, *hiak hiak hiak*, we went to Coffee Club in Takashimaya. Why? To discuss programmes for the oncoming chalet!

But good things never come smoothly, do they? I bumped into my ex-bf, Norman. He was with his gf, with his relatives or maybe with his gf's relatives. He's sitted at the adjacent table from mine. I began to dread the time in Coffee Club. Damn! Why of all places, in Coffee Club? That place gives me creeps. I met both of my ex-bfs there! Eerie! I'm not gonna go there anymore! Well, since I was the one who spotted him, I kept my profile low. But not for long. Coz since I'm in the company of a group of 9, we had to merge tthe tables, so we can gather for 'Discussion'. That was when he saw me. Darn! I saw him telling his gf and company mouthing about my presence in Coffee Club, coz the next split second, all heads turned at my direction. At that moment, I wished that the ground will just open and eat me up. Why I am under such scrutinsation? I just pretended that I didn't notice his presence, nor the stares lauded at me. When the table was done, I just wanted to sit down. Alas! Wrong seat. Sat along the walkway which he's to pass me upon leaving the cafe. As he approached me, I was praying fervantly, 'PLEASE DON'T TALK TO ME!!!' But, as usual, *prayers denied*. He called me, I had to look suprised right? I never felt like a 3rd class actress. My smile plastered on my face, registered a OH! But I know no one is so dumb to buy my story. Soon, I was bombarded with questions, How have you been? Holidays now? Where are you studying? How are your grades like? I felt suffocated as each second passed. After the short meeting, which I beg to differ, is a TORTURE! My spirit just died within that second he came forward. Mood gone. No longer chirpy. There's still more to come. Another incident that happened at night. Which is to be continued later...

Hmmm... Was browsing through my list of friends in Friendster today when I bumped into Norman's profile. He's gotta new girlfriend. Happy for him. =)

Well, it was a harsh ride for me in junior college. Norman's my first boyfriend. Met him in our class, 2S11. Things didn't work out well, as usual. We only lasted for a few months. 3 months. After that, was the Cold War. He was the one who initiated a break-up. Since he's my first boyfriend, naturally, I brawled my heart out. I even hurt myself. Now when I think of it, so damn silly of me. No matter how I torture myself, there's no way to capture his heart again. I didn't do well for my upcoming A's. So had to retake the exam. Well, serves me right. Anyway, when I look at the photo of him and his new girlfriend, he seems so much happier. Didn't have any feelings for him when I saw his photos. Finally gotten over him. Took me damn long. about 2 years. Really happy for him, finally he has found his well-deserved happiness. =)

I'm also not at the losing end! hahahaha... I've found my long lost love. ahahhahaah... My current boyfriend! He's been my crush since during my secondary school. *^^* Actually not I found him. Is he found me back! muhahaha!!! THERE'S A BIG DIFFERENCE!
We're going on strong for close to half a year this coming 30th Nov. Been a real blessing to me. Never have I thought a guy will love me this deep, dote on me that much. The past two boyfriends I'd, we didn't click. Not that my current boyfriend and I click very much. In fact, we don't! hahahahaha... I remember during our secondary school days, we'll always quibble and squibble over minor things. And my god-sis aka his best buddy, You Wei, always have to be the middle-man. Amazing that we ended up as couple. MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!

Alrighty! Enough of procastination! I'm finally sat myself here to write an entry liaoz.
Well, 14th Nov was a great way to kick things off with a splendid SPLASH! hehehehe... 11am set off to Wild Wild Wet with my great company - my pretty best sis, Shu Ling and my loving, handsome and very YUMMY PHYSIQUE Lao Gong! We had so much fun that day! Swimming against the current in the Shiok River, swimming against the crashing waves in the Wave Pool... And my dearest company tugging the float while i lie on it... =)

However, I was nearly choked to death in the Wave Pool. Due to too many people around our positions, and a FAT SUMO WRESTLER SIZE GUY kicking around our position, and the strong waves crashing over my head. dunno swallowed how many gallons of chlorinated water. Luckily Dear was around. He held me safely, never letting me go. He saw me going under the water, quickly pulled me up to breathe.

Shu Ling wanted to play the Water Viking, so I accompanied her to play. Dear was so sweet. Coz the Water Viking requires 2 people to play together. So he went to buy food for us. And he bought my favourite CHEESE FRIES!! Dear Loves meeeee!!!

We had so much fun!! Damn Exhilarating! After that in the late evening, I dragged Dear to play the Water Viking again! hahahaha... he one person can carry a 2 person sitter float! while previously, me and my best sis need to heave such a clumsy float and walk up to the top! hahahahaha... feel so shiok! I saw those envious looks of other girls when they saw Dear carry the float all by himself while i pranced my way up to the top. hahahaha!!! Too bad GIRLS! HE'S TAKEN! TOO BAD YOUR GUY AIN'T THAT STRONG! =P

After a day of swimming, we went to Orchard Paragon to have our dinner at that Ding Tai Feng Restaurant. hehehehehe... Shu Ling and Dear treat! =)
Dinner over, TIME TO HEAD HOME!! Dear insisted on sending me home, despite being tired himself. But I know he wants me home safely. He's such a sweetie!! LOVE HIM LOTS!
Dear's not those average guy you guys see on the street. He's cute, good-looking, tall, strong. But he's not a flirt nor either is he a sweet-talker like most guys of his category. I remembered saying to him before we're officially together, I liked the feeling of being wooed. But he replied, 'I dunno how to woo girls. I only know how to be a good boyfriend.' See! SINCERITY! And he really knows how to be a good boyfriend... SO FAR! LOLZ...

YEAH!! 3 more days to LIBERATION DAY!!! YEASSSSSSSSSHHH!!!! A long-awaited day! =) I'm gonna party!!!!! I've so much activities in plan already! lolz! This coming Sat, Dear is fetching me from school!! then we'll be heading to SCIENCE CENTRE to play!! =)
Then on Sunday, going to meet my good sister, Shuling, and Dear to spend a day at Escape! I wanna play the roller-coaster! From 9-11 Dec, I'll be attending a chalet with my bf and his friends!
So many things to be done within that 1.5 months of holidays! I'm gonna enjoy like crazy! Coz next semester going to be very shiong... got 6 modules... haiz.... must destress before entering another stressful zone! study hard PLAY HARD!

Dear is booking in today at 9.15pm. Just spent 2 days of the weekend with him. Well, at least better than nothing. It's tough for the past 3 weeks. Everyone must be thinking that I'll looking forward to next sat, 23/10/04. But in true fact, I'm not. I'm looking forward to 13/11/04. why? Coz it's my last paper and i'll get to see Dear after his one week of field camp! Coz he can't book out on 30/10/04 due to field camp... But from 13/11/04, he can book out every saturday liaoz!!! Now, he's on his way to book in... My heart's sad... but can't be helped... Gonna study to pass the time... Just hope that I can split into two, accompany him on his way while the other me stays at home... I miss him since this afternoon we parted at my flat's lift...

Tomorrow Dear is booking out!!! I'm soooo excited! hahahah... very restless the whole day. but managed to listen to lectures. =) he's coming out liaoz! FINALLY can touch him! got close to a month didn't hug him, dun kiss him... feels weird without him. he does call me everynight. but telephone calls can't be compared to the human touch... i wish the night passes faster, so tomorrow arrives earlier!

today's finally the long-awaited day! woke up at 6.15am this morning to get ready to visit Dear at Tekong. Really very excited. Even though only slept for 5 hours, I'm not a bit sleepy at all! Went to Tekong with his mom today. When we reached Tekong, we saw 2 rows of GREEN MEN! YIKES! EVERYONE LOOKS THE SAME!!! So there began MY QUEST IN SEARCHING FOR MY BOYFRIEND!

Firstly, I began my scanning for the few tall guys. yeah... at least the potential candidates shrunk. hahahaha... Next! To look for the SHINY DARK BLUE SPECKY GUY WITH THE NERDY LOOK! hahaha... THERE! I saw my boyfriend from afar. His mom couldn't even find him! hahahaha... and he was so afraid that we'll miss him, he stuck his head out! =.='''

Well, he did change physically. More masculine liao. More muscle-toned. Can't even find fats in his arms to pinch him. :-(
His tummy is gone. For your information, he doesn't have '6 countries merged in 1'. just that little fats bulging out from his jeans sometimes. yeah.. those were the days. Now the uniform looks damn nice on him. To speak the truth, I've a fetish for guys in uniform. Now that Dear has become so fit, and the uniform fits a PERFECT T on him, WOAH! YUMMY! Better than Brad Pitt!

We couldn't hug, much less hold hands! wat stupid rules are those? DOES HOLDING HANDS HAVE ANYTHING DEMORALISING EFFECT ON A SMALL LITTLE RECRUIT!? aduh! We're like 2 lunatics, can only STARE and STARE at each other. like ET! ya! ET!!! the index fingers connected, then all the thoughts flow to each other's mind via the connection at the index fingers.

He's become a little more tanned. ya... Miss him lots. HE'S BOOKING OUT NEXT SATURDAY!! I'm looking forward to this coming saturday!!!

Last but not least, HE LOOKS EXTREMELY GOOD IN THE UNIFORM! GREAT BODY MAN! WATCH OUT GIRLS! HE'S MINE! Muahahahahah!!!!!

YEAH!!! tomorrow i'll get to see DEAR FINALLY!!!

sianz... not done with the religion essay.. still at the body... dateline drawing nearer n nearer... Oct 9th...

Today is our 4th month anniversary. But Dear is not with me. And I spent the whole day thinking of him, crying. He's stuck in Tekong. Sent him to Tekong today. I didn't cry infront of him. But it was difficult keeping up a smiling front. Don't want him to see I'm crying. He'll only be booking out on the 16th Oct, and I can only visit him on the 10th Oct. I found out something eerie... He's enlisted on our annivesary day, and allowed visitors into Tekong on my birthday! It's definetly more than just coincidence. I miss him tremedously... I can only wait for his call...

Tomorrow is our 4th month anniversary!! But a pity Dear will be enlisted tomorrow. But it's ok! We'll just bring forward our celebration! I'm gonna miss that fat pig... 3 weeks... But i'm sure after his BMT, sure got better physique. Coz now his physique is quite good. Except got a tiny weeny little bit of tummy, coz i bought too much bak kua for him. hahahahaha...

Will miss him lots... n i mean LOTS!

just argued with dear just now. dunno lar! very frustrated now. no mood to elaborate also. damn pissed off, frustrated, stressed. he's not the only one who's feeling all these lor. i just wanted to lighten up the mood. then he said i talk rot. ya. i talk rot. then dun waste time talking to a rotten person who's always talking rot, conserve all his energy on his other stuffs, his friends, watever! always say, wat i want from him. HELLO!!! I never demanded nor want anything from him from the very 1st day we're together. NEVER! GET THAT RIGHT IN HIS PIG BRAIN! DAMN IT! So fucking pissed off now!

Skipped lessons today, stayed at home to do some self-revision. Managed to finish maths tutorial and some questions on materials science. Did some text reading on maths and materials science. Proceeding to the next are my ESSAY and physics. Everytime I think of the essay, I get so damn stressed and headache. I dunno what to write about that stupid religion class!!!! Everyone in my class seems to know what to write. This is a bad omen. Hope God above will help me out. Gimme some tips.

Dear is going to army the day after tomorrow. Time sure fly fast... I'll just look forward to 3 weeks later... During his absence of 3 weeks, I must 'pia' for my exams liaoz... exams around the corner... dun wanna 'ta bao'. so much sacrifice my weekends now... when dear come out, the sat are spent with him liaoz... so must make use of the time now...

today had physics test... ok lar... not so bad... see the results how... got back my materials science CA. A-... haiz... at least not B... tomorrow need to hand out lab report... at least today not bad... dear came to pick me up after my tutorial! hahahaha...

DIE LE LAR!!! I only understand half of what's taught... gonna fail...

I'm feeling kinda lost, sad, torn away... ok... not kinda, but VERY. You see, my boyfriend's gonna report for his enlistment on the 30th Sep, THIS MONTH! It seems just like yesterday we're still at our 1st month.... time sure flies... feel torn n lost without him for 3 weeks. 3 weeks! how am I gonna survive 3 weeks without him???

Isn't such an irony? That on the 30th Sep this month, which is his enlistment date, is also our 4th month anniversary... 'Parting is such sweet sorrow' (Romeo and Juliet). Alright. I'm getting so corny here. I've learnt alot from this relationship with my boyfriend. I learnt how to control my temper. I used to be very tempermental, very hot-tempered. And I learnt to compromise. I realised that I don't give in much to my other partner. But my boyfriend has taught me so much.

He taught me to compromise, learn to control my temper. He's been very patient with me. When I throw tantrums, he'll tolerate it. He's not a tolerant guy you know... He's got a worse temper than me. But he's changed for me. I know he's worried about leaving me alone for 3 weeks,as I'm blur like ku ku head. He even taught me some self-defense moves (he's an aikodist), coz he knows I'm ku ku head, always kena people 'eat tofu'. When he's away for 3 weeks, I can't sleep in the bus, can't sleep in the mrt. Coz ever I was molested in the bus when I was sleeping, I don't dare to sleep in public transport unless he's around. He even allow me to bite, wack, hit him when we're quarrelling hotly. He always bring a smile to my face even after we just quarrelled.

We've so much fun together. Laughter, arguments, tears of happiness and sadness. 6 years.... It took us 6 years to be together... But it's worth it. When I think back... everything's worth it for him. I don't regret anything done with him nor for him. Oh yah... I forgot to say... he likes to dance. hahahah... especially to the song 'Square Room', when we're in his room, chilling out. He'll just dance for no reason. hahahahahaha.... his moves.... SO CUTE!!!

But one thing for sure, is his room is not neat n square. It's HORRENDOUS!!! so messy! must clean his room when he's away. haiz... GUYS! what to do?

My Prince is very doting to me. He'll buy my favourite chocolates, when I'm down and when I did well in school. But he's not a spendthrift. hahaha... I taught him to save! ^^v
He don't usually buy stuffs for me. So far, he's bought my favourite pendant I've been eyeing for some months before we're together officially. He bought a pen, a pair of blue sapphire earrings, some costume jewellery, clothes, bag...

The Pendant
I've been eyeing a blue crystal pendant from Perlini's Silver for months before we're officially together. He knew it. I didn't even tell him at all! And he presented it to me on our official day, Sunday, 30th May 2004, 9.30pm, at Singapore Expo. He used that present to propose to me.

The Pen
I received a Parker pen, with my name engraved on it. It's my favourite colour blue. It's silvery blue! Know the signifance of it? Means he's always at my there to support me throughout my 4 years in university, and he wants me to work hard for my sheet of paper...

The pair of Earrings
I received my birthday present from him yesterday, 18 Sept. He bought the present early for me as he can't celebrate it with me since he'll be stuck in Tekong. I know he's feeling down and sad.... But I don't mind. All these are trifle matters. Doesn't matter. Everyday can be like a birthday, everyday can be an anniversary. What's most important is how we feel and treat each other. The earrings were bought from Goldheart. They're gorgeous. Blue (my favourite colour again) sapphire stones.... They complement with the blue pendant he bought from Perlini's Silver.

There's still many stuffs he bought for me. But mind you, he don't ALWAYS buy gifts for me. Firstly, I don't like him to spend. Secondly, if he're to buy gifts frequently, the meaning of gifts will be lost.

There's so much I've to say about him, about us, about our relationship. But I have no idea where to start, how to start.

I really can't bear to be away for him for 3 weeks.... But I've got no choice. Not within my authority... Even Lee Kwan Yew's grandson have to serve NS....

My whole body is aching now. Especially my neck. My eyes are burning. But I've not finished with my lab report!!! SHUCKS! Been sitting on the computer chair, staring at the screen continuously from 7 till now. But the stupid report has yet to be completed. I'm still at page 9!!! Only till the equipment and experimental procedure part. Stupid lar... why must have a FORMAL report? sian... must talk grandmother story. about the objectives, theory lar, functions lar, blah blah blah. My eyes going red and hot now. I need to sleep. Tomorrow continue. Somemore, just now nearly quarrel with bf. KNS. I've been very patient liaoz. Yesterday I tolerated him. today again tolerate. I tried to be very patient and cheer him up. The response? Cold, hard replies. OK lor. Anything! I too busy with school work liaoz. I already tried to cheer him up. Send him sms. Not appreciated. Dun bother liaoz. Just wanna finish my hols work. If my lab report ain't gonna get an A, I'll brawl my heart out man...

I need sleep now... tired...

Gonna pop some pills and go the bed now. No appetite to eat anyway. Alt+Ctrl+Del. Over.

Damn. Feeling moody now. Dunno what to do. Dun even wanna do anything but just scream. Shit man. Supposed to go out to buy present for my brother's birthday. Stupid timing. Raining. Doesn't matter anyway. No one to accompany me. Don't even feel like going out to buy lunch for myself. Much less travel round Singapore to buy the present. So sickening. So frustrating. So pissed off now. Don't even know what's the fucking problem man. Shit. Damn it. I don't even know why I'm swearing so much. Don't even know why I'm so pissed off. Well actually I do. I just don't wanna say it. Chuck it aside. Doesn't matter anyway. Why bother? No one bothers, not even me. Not important too. Just press Alt+Ctrl+Del. Over.

I feel so horrible now... Sore throat and a flu! waaaahhh.... i feel so lousy.... I got back my maths quiz today. scored an A. so did everyone in the class lar. no big deal. I'm aiming A for maths. but today's material science quiz, i think i'll score a B. coz the last question about miller plane indices, i anyhow humtum. but got a few correct. tomorrow last quiz before the holidays start! tomorrow's life science quiz. then I can enjoy my saturday with peace!!! *hopefully I'll be well by then...* so down now... haiz....

Alrighty! I'm attending the maths lecture hall with the laptop! hahahaha... listen to the lecturer talking crap. Slacking sia... Maths... used to be my favourite subject. but now... thanks to this lecturer.FUNG TAT CHING! @*)#!*U$!$#) what an IDIOT!!! kaoz!!! I'm supposed to be using the laptop to revise, but hahaha.... slack lar. Later go home read the textbook on my own. But for now, I'm famished. Headache for 4 days. Haiz... Didn't sleep well during the 7th month. As per usual. Yesterday, someone from my block, living in the 6th floor, comitted suiciden! The impact was so huge that the sound was a BOOM! OMG! There was a little girl who keep screaming and screaming. Poor kid, She must be shocked. His wife was screaming and crying. Poor thing. These few days got alot of accidents, scary....

hehe... Your name... Mrs Ho...
hehe... let the whole world knows tat u r Mrs Ho... haha... hehe...

Today I reached tutorial class very early. 8.00am. hahahaha... I'm the first girl and the 3rd earliest person. =P

Had a maths quiz today. Frankly speaking, I wasn't VERY prepared for it. Coz I've some doubts about the chapter Vectors (about what equation of planes blah blah blah). Luckily DETERMINANTS was tested! hahahaha!!! That's my favourite chapter man! So fun! Chin Jie and Charmaine was sitting next to me. We're like, Shit... will vectors be tested? oh man! hahaha..

Chin Jie and I were discussing vectors problems early in the morning. Poor him. Coz I was the one who posed all the WHYS. I think he must be having a headache by the end of the day. So sorry CJ. Didn't mean it. Really. =P

But the physics tutorial was HELL! I don't even catch any ball of what the tutor is talking about. Damn. Fluid Mechanics used to be my forte and favourite in college. But now... Damn. In addition, I'll be having a Physics CA on Week 7. So is Materials Science. Not to forget there's still a Religion and Sociology essay to be written on that WEEK 7!!! Aaaahhhhhhh!!! SAVE MEEEE!!

I better buck up man. I'm really trying not to TA BAO. haiz... Sad life I'm living... Feel like giving up.

Samantha, if you're reading this, thanks for the smooch. Love it. Hope I don't get pimples tomorrow. =P

An excellent day to begin with but was ruined by a bitch. Fuck.

HEADLINES : Singapore Badminton Player, Ronald Susilo lost to Thailand #@%*)#%#!_)% in a disappointing 15-10 and 15-1 match on Aug 18, 7.00pm.

Just came back from NTU. Had my lunch today during the 1 hour break at 10.30 am before my last tutorial for the day, Maths tutorial comences. Me and my group of friends went for our meal at canteen 3. 4 girls and more than 5 guys. Can't be bothered to keep count. I know I'm asking for death penalty to be sentenced to me. But I can't resist the Western food canteen 3 is selling. It's sooooo tempting!! My mouth just practically watered! The serving's generous. And most importantly, the chicken chop gravy is absolutely heavenly! HHHMMMM!!!! YUM YUM! I can still taste it...

Right now, I'm munching on an apple after popping my medicine. Taste like rubber. I've lost weight during that 2 days which I fell ill. 3 kg to be specific. I can't even climb the stairs without panting. It's so difficult to breathe. I guess that because of the flu bug. Munching on the apple seems so tiring for my mouth. Luckily the chicken chop was tender enough. Gonna nap for awhile before starting my Maths revision for next Wednesday MINI QUIZ (aka class test). I've no idea what the tutor was talking about today. As usual, he's just teaching DIRECTLY from the book. HOWEVER, I ain't gonna give up on my favourite subject just like that. I'LL JUST HAVE TO DEPEND ON MY OWN AND I'LL MAKE IT!

I feel like a bird with clipped wings, in a cage. I've been staying at home since saturday night. My boyfriend's is now out with his friend Candy, getting a shirt for his graduation day on this upcoming thursday. I'm sooooo BORED!!!!

I didn't managed to get to school in the end. The fever came back this morning about 3-4am. I couldn't sleep well. My throat hurts, my body and bones are aching, my eyelids are fiery hot. Damn. It's a fucking horrible feeling I'm undergoing now. I'm really in a lousy mood. Mommy's gone to work, Gor Gor has gone to school, Papa went out. I'm stuck alone in the house. My boyfriend's gone to work. I'm really feeling damn low. Curse that person who infected me with the bloody virus. Ended me up in such a horrible situation.

I'm feeling bored. I'll study a little after this blog. Eat my medicine and wait for the drowsiness effect to take me over. Better get some studying done. I've missed out many lectures today. I don't want to 'ta bao' my modules, you know?

I'll go study my favourite subject later. MATHS!!! If my friends were to read this, they're bound to scream at me. Hahahahaha... Coz 2 years ago, when I was hospitalised for dengue fever, they came to visit me and found me studying maths in the hospital room! hahaha.... they kick such a ruckus, fussing over me. In the end, they gave up fighting with me over the maths book, despite me being bed-ridden. No one can snatch my maths book. NO ONE. I've gone crazy. Too much medicine...

I'm sick!! Waaaahhhh.... My Sunday just flew past with me sleeping and popping pills. sad sad. :(
I feel rotten. I feel horrible. I feel UGLY! I hate being sick... I can't even attend my boyfriend's aikido performance today. So down today. I feel like brawling my heart out. I think I'm undergoing some kind of emotional unstability.

My boyfriend bought me Jay Chou's latest album to cheer me up after his aikido training. It did cheer me up a little. I've been nagging at him to buy it for me but he always give me the same answer. NO. I know he's trying to make me feel better. I'll be having lectures tomorrow 8.30am. It means that I've to wake up at 6.00am. Damn. I'm beginning to dread everyday of my life...

I'm finally home! Just came back from watching the movie, starring Tom Cruise, The Collateral. I'ts a LOUSY show! Please people, don't watch it! It has a lousy storyline and I HATE TOM CRUISE! The reason why I watched the movie was because my boyfriend's employer (HSBC) had this 'outing' for it's staff, which sponsers free movie tickets and popcorn and drink. Cheapo. That I know. But the MAIN REASON why I went is because of my boyfriend. I wanted to spend more time. In addition, we're offered free stuff, so why not!?

I really miss my boyfriend... Even though it's like only 20 mins since he left me (he sent me home). Oh man... It's gonna be difficult for me to be away from him for one whole day tomorrow! I can only meet him up on Saturday.

My boyfriend means the world to me. Though we OFTEN quarrel, I do love him. He's always trying his best to be there for me, when I need him, even when I don't need him! He's always there to protect me. My guardian angel. My feelings are defintely more than what words can describe. But the problem is me. I don't often express my love that publicly. I'll try to though. For him, I'm willing to forgo, sacrifice everything that I have. He's THE ONLY ONE for me.

I just finished watching Singapore Idol, actually, I just wanted to watch the Banana Man part. hahaha... He's sooo funny! Corny funny. I'm amazed that the judges even allow him to participate with the stupid mask on. Come to think of it, I really admire those participants. They really dare to summon their courage to apply for the competition.

I've many ambitions since young. I wanted to be an air-stewardess, doctor, lawyer, engineer, pianist, and the most absurd ambition so far was to be the Prime Minister of Singapore! hahaha..
I know that's STUPID like what my boyfriend always call me, Stupid! I've been thinking of what I'll do after my university days. There're 2 options. Firstly, which is to apply for the position of being an air-stewardess, work for 2-3 years to repay my university loan. Or secondly, follow my boyfriend to Australia, work there while he study in the university. I'll just leave the decision-making in the later part of the 3-4 years.

I wanted to be a singer when I was young. But I didn't dare to take part in the competition. So I really applaud those contestants who're brave enough to register themselves for the competition. Mommy asked me why I didn't take part. Firstly, I'm not gonna kill myself by queuing so long for the registration! Secondly, I believe fame will only last for some period of time. After that, you'll still have to depend on your skill. So practical's the best. GET A JOB!

Get a good job = Get a good certificate = study hard = enough rest = sleep NOW!

ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

Just finished studying. Gonna sleep soon. Exhausted. Woke up at 8+ this morning. Haven't rested since then. Gotta wake up early tomorrow. Tutorial lessons starts at 9.30am but I've to leave home early in order to avoid the fucking long queue to board the fucking bus. Tomorrow's gonna be a fucking shitty day. Damn it. I think I'm suffering from PMS (pre-menstrual syndrome) But I just had my time of the month last week! Alright. It's the TERRIBLE MOOD SWINGS OF MINE! At least there's something I can hope for tomorrow, so that it won't be such a fucking day afterall. I get to meet my boyfriend tomorrow! Gonna sleep now. Gotta wake up fucking early tomorrow. Unless you're my boyfriend, I dun wanna entertain anyone. Fuck off!

MORNING EVERYONE! I guessed you guys should know the reason why I'm grinning from ear to ear though it's a school day today after a LONG holiday. *groans* COZ MY BOYFRIEND WROTE ME AN ENTRY!!! WOoooo!!! Alright for those who thinks it's not a BIG DEAL about a boyfriend writing an entry to his girlfriend's blog, IT IS A HUMONGEOUS DEAL to me as he don't have much time to update his blog much less adequate sleep. SO FUCK OFF THOSE UGLY COMMENTS POPPING UP IN YOUR HEAD!!! No one can spoil my mood today! NO ONE!

Darling.... Sorry to spoil your blog wif my entry.... haha... well... i always irritate you... but one thing for sure... i really really love u much more than what u can imagine of....

Happy National Day... I'm juz about to call you after this... Wanna hear a bitmore of your voice... Muackz...

Alright. I'm updating my thursday and friday events on a saturday! OKIE! I know I'm a hopeless freak who always procrastinate stuff! Ya don't have to tell me that, coz I know that myself! Even though it's only 2 days of MIA, much events have happened during that period.

Thursday: I had a Physics makeup lecture from 7.30-8.30 pm. I had a 3 hour break before the Physics lecture commence. So I hid myself in the library to study and... SLEEP! Hahaha... Well, Razak was there with me. He and his friend were there. He taught me Physics as usual. I bombed him with questions until he can't answer and was befounded! Hahaha... Yeah... Then he exclaimed, 'YA HOR! HOW COME CANNOT! WHY NO ONE THINK OF THIS METHOD BEFORE!? Waahhh!!! Assoc Prof Chan!' That guy is a total crap man! We joked around, well, he tried to tickle me. But I didn't allow him coz I just know him and I won't allow any other guy to touch me except my bf, my bro n my dad. Yeah... After the Physics lecture, I rushed down to Boon Lay bus interchange to meet my Hubby. Then we had dinner at Jurong Point foodcourt.
After that we headed home as it was late. During the train-ride, he tried to tickle me. At that moment, I blurted out, ' Don't tickle me like what Razak tried to!' At that split instant, his facial expression and mood change a 360 degree. We had a argument in the train. Haiz... maybe he's stressed out at work, and maybe I was tired too. It was quite a heated argument... When I reached home, it was close to 12 midnight...

Friday: Today I had a Religion and Social Life makeup lecture. After that I went out with Cheah Liang for dinner with his friends at Suntec City. I was EXTREMELY tired. I woke up at 6 this morning coz I've a laboratory lesson at 8.30 am. And I had to wait for 6.30 pm for the makeup lecture to end. I rushed down to City Hall interchange to meet Cheah Liang. It seems that ever since I entered University, I'm always rushing here and there. Even for lectures and tutorials. I find that I don't have much time even for myself! The dinner was ok. But I had not much appetite. Don't really know why. Maybe it's because of the lethargy. After that my brother sent me a message to tell me to go home before it gets too late. On the way home, we quarrelled again! I don't know how come we're always arguing and quarrelling. It's so different from other relationships, where the couples are so peaceful. He said that I've changed ever since I went to the university. He told me to think and reflect upon my actions and conversations I've with him. Have I really changed that much? Somehow I don't think so except that I'm always in the rush. The university life is always on the go. If I don't keep along with the flow, I'll be forever behind, and the catching up will be tough. Everynight I reach home, I'll be so brain-dead and physically-stroked. He flared up when I told him I've got no interest to talk to him about such matters. He punched the pillars below my block, until his knuckles bled and swelled. My heart aches when I see him in such temper. At that moment, I really felt like standing in front of the pillar and hit me instead so that his knuckles won't be injured. He accused that I'm the one who's not loving him, and not the other way round. I wanted to slap his face. But I'm so fucking tired and I'm not feeling well, I really don't wish to argue or reason with him for whatever I say, he won't listen and accuse me even more. I feel that by keeping my mouth shut and allow him to scream and hurl accusations at me is the best way to end the 'conversation'. I did manged to get home, suprisingly. When he reached home, we talked for awhile before I hang up and drifted to sleep.

Saturday: Here I'm updating my 2 days incidents and blasting my speakers off. I'm gonna start my self-study soon, right after this blog. It really is pathetic that I've to spend my holiday on monday to study. But what choice do I have? Exams are drawing near. Better to start now than late. I'm gonna meet my boyfriend later. So I've to do some studying. Be a responsible student.

Adios

I don't know how to start today... I'm feeling down. Right. I got to meet my tutorial class today. Well, it's not so bad afterall. Except that I nearly lost my mobile today. Razak and I were supposed to meet outside the main lecture hall (MLT) to go to the tutorial room today. Who's Razak? Oh. He's my new friend. VERY nice guy. I met him at the Maths lecture. He was sitting next to me. After that we met again in Religion and Social Life lecture. And he's the same tutorial class as me! What a coincidence! This guy is a total funny freak! His face is soooo comical! But he's smart. Damn smart. He studied in Raffles Institute, went to Anglo Chinese Junior College. Wow! He taught me Physics (my worst subject) and I taught him Maths in exchange. ^0^v

Well, as I was saying, Razak and I went to the tutorial class together. It was only after the physics lecture that I realised that my mobile was not in my bag! I began to panic. Razak then accompanied me to where we last sat outside the lecture hall, to check if the mobile is still around, though the chances are very low. As expected, it wasn't there. My mood just went a roller-coaster dive. I wanted to cry... Razak knew how I felt. He kept pacifying me. He even lent me his phone to call my phone. But no one answer the phone. Well, who in the earth will be so smart to answer someone's else call?!?! He even sent a message to my phone, directing the person who's holding onto my phone, that the phone means a lot to me. It does! Because of my boyfriend's name tag is hanged on my phone, and the tag isn't easy to find! That's my main concern! Razak tried to cheer me up, telling me jokes and making fun at himself at others so I can smile.

Before Maths tutorial started, I tried calling my mobile again. FINALLY someone answered the call! I told the person that I lost my mobile, and asked her where's her location. When Razak overheard that I finally managed to get in contact with the finder, he was so happy for me! Oh man! I wanted to give that guy a BIG HUG! I'm soooo damn relieved! =)

Well, Razak and I then rushed to meet the girl who took my phone. My mood really changed AGAIN! hahaha... Razak couldn't help teasing me about it. Every now and then, he'll be reminding me, 'Remember to keep your mobile.' hahaha... that guy!

When the class knew that I managed to find my mobile, they said, 'OK! Write down your mobile number NOW! the phone ain't lost anymore!' hahaha... I'm beginning to like my class.

Well, besides the lost and found incident, I'm down because I didn't get to meet my boyfriend today for lunch. ~~~>.<~~~ My class ended today at 12.30pm today. I thought I can meet him for lunch. But he told me he's busy with work. ~~~>.<~~~ I understand, but I just can't help feeling rejected... I think I'll have to adjust myself to the environment now. I'll have to adapt that I can't spend as much time with him as possible. Because each of us are too busy with our own stuff. Me and my tertiary education is very much time-exhausting. So is his work and his aikido training. Just have to learn how to get use to the distance we're facing now... ~~~>.<~~~
I guess I'll go have a rest now. I've to start studying later when I wake up from my nap...

Alrighty! Good morning to everyone reading this. I'm writing my blog for yesterday. Such a procrastinar... Thanks! I'm soooo shagged last night, couldn't even understand what I'm reading from my notes. [=.=]''' REALLY have no idea that university life can be soooooo exhausting. BUT! I think the exhaustion steams from all the walking around. Guess that's why I don't see much obese people around in NTU. In addition, I think my sense of direction is getting better each day! At least I'm not those SUA KUS aka KU KUS bringing out their map as they make their way to their destination! hahaha.... I'm just a freshman like them. BUT I was asked for directions by them! >.<''' My prescriped elective, Religion and Social Science lecturer is a *$_)#&)#_! Damn... I have no idea how I'm gonna scrap through this module. I'll have to 'balance brought down' for this module throughout my 4 years. shit! Not to include my Life Science Module! Ok... Here's the headline for today, or is it yesterday? A guy called Ivan in my prescriped elective class tried to 'tackle' aka woo me. Asked me if I stay in the hostel, which I replied no. Then tried to dig more by asking where I stay. When I told him, he said, 'Unfortunately I don't have a car, if not I can send you home. Such a pity.' PITY?! I think it's a blessing in disguise! I wanted to retort back at him, 'No car, no talk.' ^^v After that he didn't give up! He even gave me his hostel block no, room no. 'Feel free to drop by at my room k?' er!!!! HELLO!!! I'm not that STUPID! (although my boyfriend, Cheah Liang always say I'm. #!{$&!#%&!#%) He asked me where I'm heading to now that I'm done with my stuff. I said, 'HOME.' 'Oh. Well, I think I'll just hang around in the library then.' THANK GOODNESS! I said bye and flew out of the library. #_# Well, today I better return $0.30 to that Ivan for the notes which he helped me to order. I don't want to give him any hopes or hints. The notes cost $10.30. I didn't have $0.30 with me yesterday. He said I don't have to return the $0.30, just treat him to lunch. CRAZY! I said, 'I'm not in the same tutorial class as you.' BUT! He replied! 'Oh WE ARE!' HOLY SHIT!!! SOMEONE GET ME OUTTA HERE!!! To My Hubby Cheah Liang, I Miss You sooo badly. Couldn't stop thinking of you everyday. Even in school... I wish we can turn back time. Go back to the time where we're working. It was then we're able to meet everyday. But now... ~~~>.<~~~

You're the only one in my heart. Don't worry about the other competitors. They have no special place in my heart.

I Love You.

Your loving Wife

Oh man... I'm finally back home. The journey back home is always such a torture... Why is the stupid university located at the very west of singapore?!?!?! Stupid! Nothing much happened today. I was late for Material Science lecture today. HEY! It's not my fault! My aunt was supposed to come to my house, but she lost her way. So I'd to search the WHOLE area of my district to look for her. In the end I was late for lecture. I ran UPHILL to the lecture hall! GOD! Since when was the last time I exercised? *shakes head*

Hmm... Yeah, then I bumped into Alex. Oh yeah. Forgot to mention about Alex. I just knew him a day ago, which is yesterday? hahaha... We got to know each other as we're clarifying maths question with the maths lecturer, and he borrowed my tutorial. He's quite a nice guy. But he's taking Materials Engineering. He kinda reminds me of my friend, Jiamin. Wonder how's Jiamin doing now... Haven't heard from him for a long time. It's time to meet up with that guy.

Today I only attend 2 hours of school. 1 hour of Material Science lecture and another hour of Religion and Social Life tutorial. Ivan saw me before the tutorial started, and gave me my share of notes. I just thanked him, and went into the room. After that, I dug into my wallet to find the $0.30 to return him. He was so stunned and blur. Hahahaha... So much about the TREAT! =P I'm not gonna entangle myself with other problems except studies. I promised myself and made a pact with Szu Min and my Hubby that we (Szu Min and I) will concentrate on nothing else but the DEGREE itself. We're going to aim for accelerated Bachaleor in 3.5 years instead of 4! Then I'll be able to follow Cheah Liang over to Australia earlier. I'll do my best! Gambetta!

Yeah. Finally sat down and started a blog myself. Been procrastinating for countless months. A big apology to my friends out there who have to wait and grumble and whine about the long wait. LOOK! LATE BETTER THAN NEVER YA!? come on! appreciate my effort... puleeeussseee...